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I'm back on my Seeming bullshit, or more accurately, I haven't stopped being on my Seeming bullshit basically this entire calendar year so far.

One of their songs is called "Remember to Breathe". I like it, I've been listening to it on repeat a lot. "'cause you're in this for the long haul" it says. I always do like me a song about immortality.

And that's been enough until I started doing a little on repeat and finally clicked into listening, into _hearing_ the bridge.

Like a tall tree
I am pining
To be taken out by the lightning
-Strike me!
I dare you
I dare you
Heaven hear me.

And maybe I shouldn't be cycling that over and over on repeat, if only because at least this morning it's making me cry.
And maybe I should be cycling that over and over on repeat, if only because at least this morning it's letting me cry.

I have to go to work now.

~Sor
MOOP!

(I love you.)

This morning started with kissing Austin on the forehead, grabbing my bags, and catching the bus for breakfast at Thrantar's house. He and I and Lucretia and Gwen ate some eggs and potats, then threw everything into the car (including ourselves) and began to drive drive drive down to Philly for the North American Festival of SCD!

The three of them are all "competing" --quotation marks because Boston is the only branch sending an "improvers" team (dancers who've been doing so for less than two years, no one is looking too closely at the fact that Lucretia has been, uh, closer to five I think?)-- in the festival, I'm just going along to cheer and dance and the like. It should also be a nice chance tomorrow evening/Sunday morning to hang a bit with Galia, who I adore and haven't seen in fuckin' ages.

The drive was really splendid! The company was good, I got to be in charge of the music (Thran has borrowed my CD cases for other road trips, enough to get a sense of my weird mix tapes from my early teenaged years and yet somehow tolerate them, although after I played enough things and let him actually make requests, he voted for Alex Sturbaum/sing-along folky stuff.) and there was shockingly little traffic for what is kindof a three day weekend? It's been a long time since I did an Easter weekend roadtrip, and luckily this time does not involve cramming 5 adults into a sedan, nor going all the way as far as Atlanta.

It did involve going as far as Maryland, since that's where Thrantar and I grew up (and Lucretia, it turns out, although we left her and Gwen behind when we drove through Philly, where the fest actually will be). Park the car amongst the usual Friday Night Crowd, and open the unlocked front door and shout "burglars!" as is my wont. Round the corner into the kitchen and stride up to mom for a hug, as they happily declare "that WAS the voice I thought it was!"

I like having a family situation where I can show up on the doorstop and be all "hey, can I stay the night here?" on zero notice. It pleases me! A little surprise now and again is good fun!

So Thrantar and I ate some pizza, and then he went off to spend the night with his buddy Ryan and I hung out with the Friday night crowd, learning about lockpicking and watching celebrity bake-off. The crowd petered out in time for mom and I to play a charming new game she'd just bought called Inkwell. It's a nice enough little strategy game, with truly stunning components, and we had a pretty close game through most of it. I'd be interested to find out how different it feels with five rather than two.

It's nice to be in my family house, which does feel rather nicely like home (I continue to hope dad meant it when he said this was the last house they'd buy, that they're planning to grow old and retire in this one). It's a hideous house in the suburbs, but it's what I am raised to, and I am fond of it! And it's full of good people and I like _that_ a lot.

Tomorrow I will awaken very early, so that Thran and I can make it to Philly in time for his 10am team call. I'm planning to dance a bit and do some grading and knit and hang out in general. It's a nice weekend, I think! I hope yours is going well too.

~Sor
MOOP!

Today has been a mixed accomplishing things day. I was out sick from work yesterday (for brain bullshit reasons) so I had to do a little bit of catchup with myself. Which I.....mostly didn't do! But I did enough and it was entirely okay.

Part of why I didn't do more is because I got distracted playing phone games after school. Which is not great. But then Clayton saved me by stopping by my room at just the exact time I would have to leave in order to get home before therapy. I could've continued fucking around and done therapy from work, but then I wouldn't have had a nice conversation with my friend nor would I've been home in any kind of timely manner.

Therapy was fine. Not super organized, but Jenn did encourage me to not just do bullshit after the thing. I managed to start some knitting during the end of it, and that was good! that carried me into actually constructive not-video game time.

I did some good knitting! I started a new yarn in Alys's scarf, then immediately frogged it and tried again simultaneous with a second yarn. This was the correct solution because I did a good job of choosing contrasting colours and now this godawful weird yarn has made the most incredible moss-like pattern. I loooove it! I am very sad that I don't have more of the yarn to figure out something for realsies to make out of it. (yes yes, I should find a picture for this)

Knitting meant I was listening to music, and that meant I, uh, recorded the song I wrote a couple years ago and rewrote a bit for YTS. And I don't want to put my work on YouTube because fuck google. So it's on Bandcamp now. (This is not a professional or good track, but also it does not cost money, so cool).

ANYWAYS.

Then it was time to make dinner and I actually spent a fairly pleasant ninety minutes in the kitchen getting things done and listening to more music. Clean the stove, make some pasta, cook some broccoli, catch up on a *lot* of dishes. It was good and I'm glad to have done it! But man, I'm glad to be done with it.

Played a wee bit of Slay the Spire (which felt _good_, just doing a bit of one round) and now I'm busy watching Taskmaster with my favoured. It's going very well!

Tomorrow I'm going to hang out with Ruthie a bit (possibly with her toddler possibly without) and, uh. Ideally do some unpacking from last weekend and repacking for the next. And then also maybe some grading?

And that's me!

~Sor
MOOP!